Consistently Inconsistent: The ADHD CEO’s Paradox
However, there's one challenge that I consistently find myself wrestling with. A challenge that, in the spirit of authenticity, I am going to share today- is the chronic struggle of staying consistent with posting and engaging on social media. Why is it a struggle, you ask? My mind is like a graffiti wall with ideas constantly being sprayed on, but when it comes to settling down and churning out content consistently, let's just say my wall often goes blank.
Immediately No
Living with ADHD, depression, and anxiety is like juggling a circus of emotions on a tightrope. So, when I'm hit with this unexplainable lack of motivation, it's like trying to solve a mystery without any clues. I find myself questioning the source of this sudden change. Is it boredom? Depression? Burnout? Or perhaps it's an unexpected blend of all three, conspiring against my creative genius.
It’s The Audacity For Me
As a woman running a business, I am constantly striving to build a business that reflects my values and expertise. And when it comes to working with clients, we all want to make sure that the relationship is mutually beneficial and respectful. Unfortunately, there are times when a client just doesn't fit the bill, and it becomes necessary to cut ties. It's never easy, but sometimes it's a necessary part of maintaining your peace and preserving your sanity.
A Recipe for Chaos
Running a business as a woman is hard enough as it is. Add a family, ADHD, anxiety, and depression to the mix, and you've got yourself a recipe for chaos. But do people ever talk about it? Not really. It's a silent struggle that women like me face every day.
The lies my imposter syndrome wants me to believe
Let's be real, as a woman who grew up with two drug-addicted parents that did not have stable jobs, or maintained stable homes for their children and both died before I turned 18, success for me was merely not becoming a product of my environment. I never imagined being college educated, holding a Master's of Arts in Education, or being the CEO of a six-figure business because that was not a normalized reality for girls like me. But thirty-some-odd years later, here we are and how dare I sit and question my own potential and worth as if I haven't busted my butt for years to get to this place of bliss. The place of "I am not broke, I am comfortable", or the place of "I can work from anywhere I want, whenever I want".
Throw the whole business away
Some days I have had to put in 12 to 14 hours to get things done only to sometimes ponder if the results are even worth all the effort. I have had days when I get so overwhelmed with my workload that my body freezes and I can't seem to physically get anything done. As much as I love being able to control my time and not having to answer to anyone, being the CEO is not for everybody.